Where the hell did 10 years go?

Anybody else asking themselves this? Normally I would look up and begin to panic; damn 10 years have passed and I still haven't finished my degree. I still haven't written that book. I had dreams and goals but have not accomplished any of them. My heart is getting tight as I type this. Damn, what have I been doing? Then I would tell myself you've been raising a family that's what you've been doing. Also me, yeah but there are plenty of women who accomplish goals with kids and a family so really what have you been doing? What do you have to show for yourself 10 years later? Me back to me ( I hope yall are following) Nothing. I go get in my bed weep and be angry at me for not doing shit for that past 10 years. Now here's the part when I tell yall never again I have changed blah blah blah today I am a goal-getter, I am going to do this this and this, but still don't accomplish a damn thing.

Nope, not that either. Here's my point: My biggest competition is me. I am not other women. I am me. Dominique Simone Morgan. I have huge flaws I start shit and then stop. Do I plan to stop this? Absolute-freaking -ly, but I have a bigger problem. Why do I do this? Where did this stem from? I can remember my coach yelling at me for being so hard on myself. Rome wasn't built in a day, Dominique. I have been this same 18-year-old girl trying to build Rome in one day, and when I can't I quit. I quit for several reasons frustration that I can't build a damn empire in one day, and also because I am scared. Scared of rejection, scared of the unknown, and totally transparency scared of succeeding. Why scared of succeeding? Well, if I actually succeed then I would have to actually stick with something. The irony, I know. 🤷🏽‍♀️

How do I fix this? Well for one I have a fixed mindset. I am going to spend time trying to develop a growth mindset. "Aim small miss small." - from the Patriot, my mentality. My problem has been I try to build an entire empire in one day instead of trying to build several small pieces that create an empire. So this is where I am at. Make small steps towards this giant goal. Keep my accountability partners so when I slack off they pull me back up. No matter what I just keep digging until I strike oil. I hope that you all continue on this journey with me as I continue to dig towards these goals. Let me know your goals and dreams in the comments! I look forward to chatting with you.

D'Que