Friends Until The End

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I wrote this blog in December and I am just now able to release it. I pray this will touch someone, but warning this one is heavy

If you are here we have officially made it to December which is always the representation of the end of a year, but expectancy for a new beginning. Last month was so hectic for my family. I learned a new meaning, and I want to share my grief because writing is always healing for me which is why writing when I am going through something is so much easier than writing when I am happy. On November 2nd (Also Myon's birthday) I was hyped all day because my husband was crossing one of the biggest goals off his list and it was his birthday. He was preparing to cross the burning sands into the fraternity Alpha Phi Alpha. However that morning I got a call from my friend's husband which was weird because he literally never calls me unless we are trying to coordinate something. I answer the phone and he tells me," Domi, Tangela is in the hospital and it’s bad." I needed him to explain so then I went into a friend mode. Have you eaten? What do you need? Can I come? Who has the kids? I got all my questions answered so now I had to decide if I was going to call Myon or not. It was his birthday and he was busy, but I was not sure she was gonna make it. So I called to deliver some of the worse news ever on one of the greatest days of his life. I informed him that I was going to go see her. I went to the hospital and I whispered in her ear that its me and proceeded to talk to her in her ear because the room was full. I didn't stay too long because only so many people could go back and visit at the same time, and my friend was waiting her turn. We left for the night and Myon returned the next day. It was just us in the room. Later the family decided to take her off life support. My girl was a fighter so they had to move her to hospice. We went to visit her every day. I combed her hair. Myon sang her songs. We laughed, we cried; we were her friends until the very end. It gave me such a new meaning to the saying “friend until the end.” My girl passed 11/08/2024 and I have been heart broken ever since. No one prepares you for this type of grief. I wasn't Tangela's best friend but I was in her close inner circle. I was one of the very few people who knew all her business, but most of all I was the younger one but I also gave her advice. She was both Myles and Mckenzy's godmother. She would've been god mother to all our kids, but if we are honest we got four kids lol who wants to be godmother to four kids? That was my pregnancy twin. Every time I had a baby she had a baby shortly there after. She delivered Myles. That was my sister. Her and Myon were friends before I ever moved to Houston. I understood their friendship and I loved her for being a close friend to my husband, but we had our own special bond.While she was in the hospital or hospice I would always say hey its Domi, and start talking. Damn near every time I saw a tear in her eye. I would wipe her tears and keep talking, I know she always heard me. I knew she was going to walk out of hospice and have another story to tell, but she didn't. My heart shattered. When I think back on it I know she was telling me that she was dying, but I wasn't listening. However, as kids we always talking about being friends until the end. I don't think as a kid I knew what that really meant until I turned 40. I was 14 days into being 40 years old when I learned what I means to be a friend until this life is over. To visit your friend in hospice. To comb their hair when they can't. To wipe their tears. To speak life on their death bed. To pray over them. To tell them it’s ok I have our kids from here. To be one of the last voices they hear before they take their last breathe. To be someone's friend to the end is literally breaking my heart. Life is short. This has made me wonder who would be there for me? Who will comb my hair when I can't. Who will speak life when death is knocking on me door? Who will make sure my kids know who I was in this life if I don't make it to see them as adults? Who will be my friend until the end? How much will this earth miss me when I am gone? This has made me form new friendships with people who were close to her. This has made me reform relationships I had given up on because I geniunely love them and I know they love me, we just have differences. Differences are ok, but who will be with you in the end especially those that are not blood related? 

In honor of my friend I have become a certified step instructor and I am promoting heart health. I am currently raising money to purchase steppers please consider donating www.donorbox.org/Simone-Steps I will blog more about this soon.

One Love,

D'Que