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My 39th birthday is in 2 days and I am filled with gratitude. God has been so good and faithful to me even when I wasn’t to him. As I reflect I can’t help but be reminded of where I was just a few short years ago. I was battling depression and anxiety. Today I still have my anxiety battles, but I don’t nearly have as much as I used to have. Depression doesn’t exist in my life. I no longer live in a place of imposter syndrome and I live a life of abundance. Myon asked me what’s next and I could clearly state what I wanted next in this life. Before I wouldn’t have a clue or I wouldn’t know how to verbalize it. Yesterday without issue or hesitation I told him exactly what I wanted next. This weekend I missed my 20th class reunion and I don’t feel any type of way about it because when you switch school 3 times there’s no real connection anyway. Of course, I have a little more love because that was the school I graduated from, but I don’t really keep in contact with anyone from high school. When I go to Tyler I go see my parents and head back to the H. At times I feel sad that my connections are not stronger, but I am also very grateful for the connections that I have made here. My college connections have been connections that will be with me for the rest of my life. As I take my career to different levels I know I will make new friends there possibly, and let’s not forget all of my internet friends I’ve made through the years sharing my story. Then there are my gym friendships that I have formed. I honestly feel full. I haven’t felt this in a while maybe even ever. One day I was driving down the street and I said I feel something. I don’t know if I have felt like this. Then I laughed and said it’s happy. I feel happy. I pray that as you all continue this journey with me, I know I will have more lows but I will also experience extreme highs. I look forward to them all because it is all growth. Today isn’t really about a lesson but more about reflection I hope you all continue to rock with me as the next chapter begins and I will officially spend the next year on the road to 40. Cheers to health, wealth, continued love, and life. 39 means guidance, protection, and inspiration. I look forward to all of them. One Love, D’Que