Rejection before Rejoicing Part 1

Hey everyone, I have so much that I want to write about so bare with me let's see where this one takes us. I have written several blogs in my head in the last few weeks, but none of them have hit the keyboard yet, so I will just start typing and see what comes out. Let's start with where have I been and why I haven't been writing well a lot. I think I may have been a little depressed because a class that should have been easy I ended up failing. I started off bad and started missing assignments, and then in the middle of the term my friend passed away from cancer. For the longest, I couldn't even say rest in peace because while I followed her journey and I knew it didn't look good I just knew in my heart that she would be ok this time too. She passed away on Mother's Day, and after that, I just never found my footing again in that class. I just accepted the defeat momentarily. Then on June 10th, my AC went out and we didn't get it fixed for almost 30 days in the Texas heat. We did the best we could. I let my kids eat popsicles for breakfast, lunch, and dinner most days because hot is not enough to explain. I missed more workouts in June than I had missed all last year combined. (Ya'll know I hate missing workouts) Then towards the end of June, I thought I found a lump in my breast. I went and saw my doctor. Dr. Rowe inspired me so much in this appointment. I explained I just lost my friend, I was doing my routine examination and panicked. I thought I felt a lump, but then I told her I thought I was tripping. Dr. Rowe explained to me that I was not tripping and that I felt something in my body now we have to figure out what it was she gave me validation. She made me feel seen. I wrote her a raving review after I left because number one I cried in the office, but I also cried happy tears in the car because since I left my doctor in Tyler in 2008 I hadn't connected with a doctor. I always thought it was because Tyler was small he just treated me more than just a patient, but Dr. Rowe gave me that same feeling, and the fact that she looked like me made it so much better. She can relate to me. I love that. I am fine. She did her own examination and sent me for a mammogram anyhow. Turns out that even after you stop breastfeeding years later you can still get trapped milk in your milk duct.

Anyhow, this leads to what I really came here to talk about and share my story. I had been looking for jobs for a while. I loved my job, but I really needed to make more money. Also, I was very comfortable. Like too comfortable. It was safe for me. So I started applying to different places. My brother-in-law was telling me that his bank was hiring and that I should apply. I automatically down-talked myself and said I would never get hired. I don't have my degree yet, and I was not qualified. He laughed and said many people in this position did not have a degree. So I put a little of my therapy to practice and applied even though I was scared. When I say filling out the application made my heart race and my hands were sweating. Your girl was nervous, and that is when I knew I was doing the right thing because it made me so uncomfortable. I got hired, but then they realized that the position that I would have been working for and my brother-in-law would have been on the same team, and they couldn't have that happen so they rescinded the offer. I tried my best not to feel defeated but I did. I had written it on my mirror, I hyped myself up in the mirror, spoke affirmations to myself in the mirror and I just didn't understand how I let myself get my hopes up to only be let down. So when I heard about the next bank job I made myself apply anyway. Again scared as hell literally shaking while feeling out the application feeling underqualified. I got an interview. I got a second interview. Nope didn't get the job. Now I am confused and a little defeated proclaimed I wasn't applying anywhere else until I finished my degree. My brother-in-law had reached out to one of the people that had interviewed me because that guy used to work at his bank. He said that I interviewed well, and he would keep my information just in case another positioned open back up. I did not believe him after all that's what the other recruiter said, and it's been crickets from that guy! I emailed the recruiter and the guy who told my brother-in-law about the job and told them thank you for the opportunity anyway. It felt like months later, but honestly, it was probably about a month later I randomly check my email at work, and the lady that had interviewed me asked me if was I still interested in the position, and if so give her a call. I call this lady immediately this was on a Friday. She let me know that she would let me know when they put the application up on the website, and to apply immediately. Sure enough, she keeps her word and lets me know. I apply immediately I didn't even fret over any small detail I just sent that application within like 5 minutes. The following Saturday one week after she had contacted me I got an email stating I was NOT chosen for the position. Me, "WTF YALL CALLED ME!! I was minding my own business!!" I can't say I was mad, but I most certainly said to myself this that bullshit. By now I feel a tad bit confident because I keep getting interviews so maybe just maybe I am more qualified than I thought. After all, I did get hired circumstances just got in the way. However, I have still decided I am not applying for any more bank or accountant-type jobs until I finish. Now I still need to make more money. so let me try to apply for another medical billing position. Now my cousin works in Katy and tells me they are hiring just apply. I am hesitant. If you know anything about Houston traffic Katy is an hour away from me and the traffic is horrendous, but I say let's just try. I get the interview, the second interview, and my recruiter emails and says I will be sending you an offer soon. This is the day before I go see Dr. Rowe. While I am in the office waiting to see Dr. Rowe I get a call from an unknown number. (Just for timeline sake, this is about three weeks after I got the rejection email from the second bank.) I look at the visual voicemail it is from a different recruiter from bank #2. I only have 5%, so I ask myself why is she calling me, maybe she is calling to set up an interview. Anyhow I will call her when I get home. When I leave Dr. Rowe's office I say let me just call her real quick if she wants to set up an interview it won't be long I only have 3%, and no charger in the car to charge my phone. Ya'll this lady was not calling to set up an interview this lady is calling to offer me a whole job!! The story continues on part two because this is long my bad ya'll.