Let's Stop Pretending

Can we please stop pretending that being on a healing journey is sunshine and rainbows? Healing is complex and traumatic. It brings up all your past trauma, asking you to face it head-on. It forces you to deal with suppressed emotions that you just tossed to the side for later, but secretly hoping later never comes. Healing brings up hurt, pain, anger, frustrations, and everything else you can imagine while facing your day to day activities you are dealing with now. Healing is not this happy place where you stand around with your therapist and sing kumbaya. Healing requires work and it is a process. I am so sick and tired of people downplaying healing. They post pictures of these meditative spaces and #healing. Mediation is great I am all for it, but there is so much more to true healing. They go on the vacations by themselves #yolo #healing. No. All of this can be apart of the process let's see where the work is being done. I promised on this journey I would be transparent. I am on a healing journey and it ain't peaches and cream. I left therapy last week EXHAUSTED!!! I was sweating I don't typically sweat and it was not hot in there, but yet there I was sweat dripping down my back like I had run a 5K. Can we talk about how emotions can leave you feeling exhausted? It doesn't matter if I had a day full of anxiety or just a day dealing with other negative emotions, trying to face them I end up exhausted. The therapist's question, "tell me about yourself?" is exhausting. Trying to unlock all the past trauma and get through it without crying, or even talking about something that you have buried on purpose now having to face it head-on. Exhausting. So here is me full transparency healing is hard work. It's not pretty, but the outcome is so beautiful. The outcome is why you must keep pushing through the hurt, pain, and rejection. Continue journeying with me.

One Love,

D'Que