Food Triggers

Last March I started transitioning from eating meat to a more vegetarian lifestyle. The first 6 months were great as I had even adopted more of a vegan lifestyle which is my ultimate goal. Then I started having anxiety around eating. If I hadn’t planned my meals, and needed to grab something quickly, I would have a very hard time trying to figure out what to eat. I want something healthy, not too much sodium, and no meat. I would have to already have an idea of what I wanted before I got hungry because after I was hungry it’s a wrap. I would either just not eat, or just eat whatever.

For as long as I can think of I’ve had an unhealthy relationship with food. My mom used to take me to get an egg roll almost every day after school at my favorite Chinese restaurant, and if I did in school she would take me to Dairy Queen to get a banana split replace the chocolate with blueberry sauce, strawberry, and pineapple! I love food, and when I start restricting it I begin to feel overwhelmed. I literally can not eat the same thing every day. I can do like two days in a row, but by day three there’s no way you are getting me to eat that again. I am not even talking leftovers it could be made fresh, but it's not happening jack. My throat gets tight and I just can’t. I love food it makes me happy.

Since falling hard off the wagon to get back on track I have started planning my meals. I don't need to prep I just need to have an idea or outline of what it is that I am going to eat. I have to make sure that I have everything on hand ahead of time because if I don't I will spiral quickly. I can't quite figure out when food starting making me anxious, but I know these last 2 years it has definitely been a trigger for me. I think with planning and the occasional meal prep I may be in a better place. Is food a trigger for you? D'Que