Find Joy

In my therapy session, a few weeks ago, my therapist told me to find something that gives me joy because the next few weeks will be tough. She did NOT lie. This week was rough and I am not sure why even after rethinking about my therapy session. When I ended the video chat session with my therapist my face broke out in hives. I love my therapist she makes it fun, but lets you know she is serious at the same time. She also tells me, "It's okay to cry your in therapy." First of all, I am a crier. I believe in releasing and not bottling things up. I know some people who have never seen a parent cry or only on very few occasions. I feel like this gives people an unrealistic expectation that people shouldn't cry. I am not afraid to cry in front of my children. I want them to see me in my raw emotions because they are real. When I am angry I express my anger. I do not blow up, but I let them know I am angry because anger is a real emotion. However, in therapy, I have a hard time just letting it all out in tears. My tears will start to form, but, for whatever reason, I just can't release them. It's weird especially for me because like I said I am a crier.

So this "find joy" thing! We made a plan for me to find joy because the next few weeks are going to be rough. I discovered my blog brings me joy, so I will write. My blog does bring me joy. Nothing like spilling your guts to a lot of strangers, some people you haven't seen in years, and to those, I connect with often. I added word searches to my joy. I love word searches. I can do them stressed and in my most relaxed state. These are important because after a rough therapy session I have a hard time writing. What brings you joy? How do you cope when you are dealing with things? Let me know in the comments. One Love, DQue