Empty Tank

Hey everyone! Welcome back. Do you struggle with keeping a schedule? I would like to say I am a free-spirited scheduler. No set time for almost anything! However, my exercise time is non-negotiable. I workout Monday through Friday between 4-5 pm. If I can't work out at this time I get upset and begin to panic. It's my one consistent thing. Last week Myon had to go to College Station for work, and I knew he wasn't going to make it back in time. I began to panic. However, I manage to workout later that evening. I was still upset though. Not at Myon, clearly, it was for his job, but I am mad at the universe for not allowing me to workout at the time I had planned.

I have a hard time readjusting my schedule. If I plan something I need it set in stone. We haven't made it to the point where we can afford a nanny yet, so a lot of my life is working my schedule around everyone else's schedule. Myon and I try to coordinate our schedules as much as possible, but most of the time his schedule takes precedence. My schedule is a little freer because I don't have to be on for work at any particular time. The boys have to be on for school at certain times. Melody naps at a certain time for the most part. Then there is me, free-floating Frankie struggling to keep my dreams alive. It is hard. When I do finally get the kids to bed at 8 pm most times I don't have anything left in the tank for myself. If I can mustard up the energy to do something for myself it's usually I have to log on for work because I haven't logged on for 3 days.

Last Thursday I had planned to work from 8 pm - 12 am. However, Myles needed help with his social studies so I spent 2 hours helping him. When I was finished I had nothing else left for anybody for the day. I opened my laptop to begin working, but I was exhausted. I tried for about 30 minutes to get my life together, but I literally had nothing. I closed my laptop and went to bed.

I want to start recording youtube videos, but when? I want to write my blogs earlier, but when I sit down most nights my tank is empty. How do parents manage to keep up with everyone else's schedule and their own without the extra help? How do you manage to make it happen? Do you have a nanny or family member that helps out? How do you work to maintain life, but also chase your dreams? Let me know in the comments if you too struggle with this!